Again it has been quite a while sense I have written. Many times I have sat down to type and nothing has come to me, I'm my moms child but I do not have her ability to sit and babble everyday about my boring life and what's going on in it.
Have you ever had to keep a secret? One you knew that if you said anything your world would be tossed upside down. Well... I am there! You want to tell someone but you know that if you speak a word of it it will change everything and not only that some changes are very unwanted. But as the name reads I am trying to learn the lessons of life and I know that what I don't say is just as important.
This year has gotten off on a VERY rocky start, the Tuesday before my great grandmas funeral/memorial in Salem, OR I found out a good friend of mine had been killed and I began going into this very sad and depressed state, which I'm sure I am still in. Tyler Alexander Stock died on Tuesday, January 11th 2011 just after 1 am in the morning, I didn't find out until later Tuesday night while at a friends house. I cried most of Tuesday night and Wednesday morning and had to tell many others that a great friend and classmate had passed away. Tyler was was a great friend and had a huge heart and was one of the nicest guys I have ever met, my fondest memories of Ty were in 9th grade at Southridge High School where everyday before 6th period he would always give me hugs and greet me with a big smile on his face. We will miss him very much and I'm sure he will be waiting for us on the other side! Love you big guy I can't wait to see your wings!
Friday I left with my grandparents and my uncle to Salem for my great grandmas memorial/funeral and though it was nice to see my family and spend time with them I wished it would have been under better circumstances. I was happy to see and catch up with some of my family I hadn't seen sense my great grandpas funeral in 2008.
Lately I have been helping my mom in this new need to feel sexy, which I'm sad to say is working, it's bad when your walking in the mall with your mother who is 24 years older then you and the guys are checking HER out. Don't get me wrong I'm glad my mom is finally doing something for her and really starting to feel beautiful and happy again, just don't feel sexy and beautiful around me lol.
I can't blame her though, because I feel the same way, I have an amazing guy in my life right now who makes me happier then all the guys I have been with put together. And because I have someone to make me feel beautiful, I am actually starting to believe it. I got some new tops that I love and feel sexy in, and for once I am starting to work out and lose weight for me and not because someone else wants me to. Also I am going to be in one of my best friends wedding and of course there will be lots of pictures and I want to look good for that as well so Congratulations Stephinee I love you and I'm glad you found a great guy who treats you right!
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